Sunday, 30 December 2007

Tuesday, 25 December 2007

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to all our family and friends, we hope you had a lovely day. Ours was reasonably quiet. Tyler amazingly slept till 8am and then launched into his Santa Sack with gusto. He took all his booty into the lounge where Chris said "There are more presents under the tree." "Wow!" said Tyler "Really? How cool!".

Later in the morning Tyler and I went over to Mum's with the Howards and we all swapped gifts. Tyler's favourite seems to be his mock sword from the Howards, but he is also very much taken with a gift from Granna and Richard, which is a magnetic-paged book with various streets on which cutouts of various types of trucks, and heavy machinery can be placed. It is lovely watching him move them around, making the appropriate noises and telling a story about them out loud.
We had the traditional turkey with gravy and/or cranberry sauce with new potatoes and mint from our garden. We picked up Anton late afternoon and had more turkey with salad and new potatoes again for tea, followed by plum pudding with custard and cream. Chris is working night shift tonight so Tyler and I are having a quiet night in - he watching his new 'Thomas' DVD and me reading a new Dean Koontz (thanks Howards!)

Tomorrow we are having a Howard/McLeod/Parsons lunch at Mum's.

Monday, 17 December 2007

Isn't it funny how one day your life can be going along happily, and then BAM!! something just comes out of left field and leaves you reeling.

On Saturday, Chris and I went along to the local ultrasound clinic for a scan of our baby to confirm dates. We had only told close family that I was pregnant. So there I was lying on the table and heard the words "I'm sorry folks, the news is not good". It was as if my life suddenly developed this huge crack in it, so that one side was my happy shiny life and on this side, one split-second later was a black void. We were told that there was no heartbeat and that it looked as if the baby had died one week before. I should have been 8 weeks pregnant. Instead I had a dead baby inside me.

So what that I am 44 and the risk of miscarriage is higher? So what that we already have a beautiful little boy? So what that 'it must have been for a reason'? All of that is utterly and completely irrelevant. We wanted THIS baby.

I am so lucky that I have such a wonderful man as Chris to get me through this hateful blackness. And Helen and Mum who know the power of family love. And my friends Rachel, Alania, Kate & Ruth who have reached out with words and hugs and love.

As I write this I am waiting to miscarry. I am torn between wanting this dead baby out of me and not wanting to let it go.

RIP little 'Leo'. Maybe your soul will return to us in another form.

Friday, 14 December 2007

Graduation Day!

SIT graduation today and I am glad I went, despite having to wear one of those daft trenchers. It didn't fall off and I didn't trip going up or down the stairs to the stage so that's a bonus. We got to do the procession through town even though there was light rain. And because SIT is fighting the issue of decreased funding in a very feisty way, there was a big item early on the 6pm TV news and there I was!! Well for two seconds anyway.

Sunday, 9 December 2007

Santa Claus is comeing to town

December is here and we just put up the the Christmas tree. This is Tyler 'helping' me. He didn't quite grasp the point of the little loops at the top of each ornament so just kept nestling each one in the branches. But he had a lot of fun and that's what matters. Here's the finished product. The angel at the top is a special one Mum gave me - it is singing :)

Sunday, 25 November 2007

The end at last!

My exam is over and - thanks to a kind tutor who let me know my results early - I know that I got an A+ woohoo!!! Great way to finish the Diploma. Graduation to look forward to now (apart from the funny hat).

Not much to report here. Both Chris and I got sick last weekend with some kind of tummy bug. I had a mild dose but he was quite crook. Luckily neither of the boys got it. Anton has just come back from school camp which he really enjoyed - lots of outdoor activities like kayaking. Tyler's latest favourite saying is "I'm gonna give you hand, Dad". The weather has been fabulous so we have been enjoying the farmlet lifestyle.
Here's a pic of the boys carked out on our bed watching Harry Potter.

Sunday, 4 November 2007

Here's a pic of Chris and Tyler when we were at the museum (who's name completely escapes me at the moment) in the old Dunedin Railway Station.

Nothing much to report at the moment. Tyler's toilet-training is going well. He amused me no end the other day when he was getting ready for bed and pulled his pj pants up under his armpits. "You look like a nerd" I laughed. "I am" he replied!

Only 2 weeks till my final Commerical Law paper exam. Eeks. I know I will pass, but I want to pass well. And here I am playing on the computer instead of studying. Oops *blush*

Touch season is well under way. I'm only playing one game a night (for PRL) but Chris is playing his usual 3. So far the weather has been not too bad. Nephew Stephen plays for my work team too, it's great having a fit young thing with plenty of skills on board. Last Thurday we played against the Smelter team that Chris plays for and we drew 4-4, which wa s probably the ideal outcome!

Thursday, 18 October 2007

Tuesday was a very sad day - my Grandma died. She was 93 and had been in bad health for some time, so we knew this day was coming. Doesn't make it any easier though does it? We are having a memorial service for her tomorrow in Dunedin where we will celebrate her full life.
This is a picture of her playing Peek-a-Boo with Tyler earlier this year.